2 months of pain, 2 months of confusion and 2 months of finding out that being told that I was going to die was a general mistake!! I feel like I've cheated death. The hell with my crappy life, I've learned that I'm going to enjoy it instead of focusing on the misery like before.

YES!!!

Whatever people throw at me, I'll keep coming back. And no matter how much I get hurt, I'll get over it. My biggest mistake in life was feeling that love was my cure, but in actuality, it was my downfall. So, I understand now that the most important thing is family and friends. I'm getting better, day by day, since recently. I remember being told that it has to get worse to get better, and I just shrugged that off.

Well in a matter of days, my life crashed down infront of me. I lost my girlfriend, I was told I was going to die, and I lost my family and any hope at all. I just wanted to die, but you know what? Screw it!! I'm not going to die yet, and I'm not going to let any fucking bitch bring me down to the level that I got before. A person can only take so much until they just give up, and I got pushed to that point.

Cheers to a few people who kept in contact with me through email and knew the situation for a while.

I've changed so much. Finally managed to afford my motorcycle, and now I'm heading out to explore the world through my passion....which no one ever knew what it is, but it's bikes..always was, and now I get a chance to enjoy life with a passion and hobby. No girlfriend, no restrictions, no emotional torment, nor abuse..just pure fucking freedom!!!!! I AM NOT DEAD!!! DAMN IT... !!

Oh yeah and to everyone else, keep up the art, and enjoy life.

To someone specific :-

Next time you want to kill me, finish the job (you know who you are). You can't get what you want by threatening the other person. And finally, try to enjoy life. I mean it!! You deserve it, but I hope that Karma doesn't exist. 'cause if it did, I just received all my bad Karma in one big burst over the last 2 months, but I think, if Karma is real, if you get it back you'll probably get killed (by accident apparently)..I almost did, so stay strong..not like you're going to read this, but who cares. I just wanted to get some things off my chest, which I was too frightened to before.

Muahhahahahahhaaha.. YEAH I'm psycho right now because I just found out I'm going to live...so HELL YEAH!!!!